Saint Patrick Roy # 33

Okay, tonight is probably the biggest hockey game I've had at Mount Allison. We are playing Town Power, the best team on Campus. They are sick, Ian Ross is an amazing player. Some ex-Q players as well and OHL. The Combines best line is also going to be there. So I am going to pay tribute to my idol. Everyone has an idol, mine is Patrick Roy. Since I was seven I was obessed with the man. He served as an inspiration for me. When your seven and you are diagnosed with TS, life seems shitty, but knowning someone who does have it and succeded well that's awesome. Yes, Patrick Roy does have Tourette's Syndrome, and its not public, so keep it hush, hush! I'll post a series of his pics.

Representing the country I love.

Butterfly!

Ok, when I become a lawyer, this is the first thing I am going to buy!
Kyle

Things went well

Well, what a busy weekend.

I had coffee with on Saturday. It was a good start. This girl is so awesome. So much fun just talking with her. She has a lot of things to say, and we are really so much a like. I was worried though. We got started on church and her church and relationships got into it mainly becuase of me. I didn't poor my soul out, but I told her of my past situation. I hesitated and she said not to worry. She didn't mention her past, but I could tell that she was thinking the same things that I was. I really regreated after telling her all about things. But I realized today that that is who I am. I get things out in the open, I really tell all, reveal my soul, and if people don't like it or if they can't handle it then they really aren't for me. I realize that lots of people give you advice about things, but in the end, you have to do what you usually do, what just comes out of your mouth. So yeah I may regret a little, but it happened. Plus I was talking to one of her friends and she said that she told her that she had a really good time. This girl also said that I should not worry about telling her about my past, because she isn't one to judge.

We went to Bridge Street Cafe, it was so crowded so we got coffee and ended up walking around town for a bit. Then we went back and found a seat. Met her at 11.30 and we departed at 1.00pm. It was fun.....plus we are probably going to do something this week. I asked her if she wanted to and she said yeah. We always see each other in the library and in class so we can make plans later. We both are busy this week though. I'm keeping the faith!

A little anxious

Ok, so I was so happy to hear that this girl wanted to do something with me. But when I told one of my friends she said "oh, she has a boyfriend." So most of Friday was spent moping around thinking: "what does that mean?" But my spirits were lifted a little when I found out that she had broken up with her boyfriend a month ago. However, they had been going out since high school! So I am a little bumed out, but not really because that means we are both coming from similar circumstances, varied but similar. So, I am going to keep my head up. God, I'm so scared, I am anxious about this.

Ok, so I'm going on a date?

K, I asked the girl to do something. She said yes.......I'm going in a few hours.......more to the story, but not enough time to blog. I'll fill in the details later. Wish me luck!

The little man from Shawinigan

Ok, this guy is my idol. I mean come on, the guy begins from the a poor working class family, has a disability, works his way up to become a succesful lawyer, becomes Prime Minister of Canada, has a dynasty (some say a regime) for ten years! The man is made of Iron Steel! Who can go on record and say that Justice Gomery (Judge of the Sponsorship Inquiry) is biased. It's almost unheard of that someone says "Hey Judge, you're incompetant, please step a side!" Jean my man, you are awesome! Probably next to Trudeau, there is no other politician that has the balls like this guy does! I mean, look at his expression: "So what, I don't care!"

Good day with positive developments

Well today was a good day, a different day but good. So I fixed my essay and I'm going to pass it in. I found out that all my stuff arrived at the law schools, so now to sit back an wait.

Hard part of the day but good in the end: today I saw Amy. The first time in say two months or so. I saw her on campus. I always said what would you do Kyle? Well I called out, I said "Amy!" She saw me, put her head down, kept walking away. I tried, I promised I would try. I felt good that I said hi. I ended it, but I still didn't want things like this, even if she is moved on. I'd at least like to say "hey, how's it going?" But no. I feel good about the whole situation. I mean I extended myself to her. She knows that if she ever needs me she can call. I'd be there for her. Maybe it means that I've moved on? But, she still has issues to sort out? Oh well, it doesn't matter.

I saw the girl today. Didn't ask, situation wasn't right. I will though. Ok, this isn't going to turn into a soap opera!

Today was a good day, tomorrow even better?

Well today I accomplished a lot. Visited w/ a prof, edited the paper for the prof, and managed to get some organization done. Plus, one of my classes was cancelled because the prof was sick. However, I was planning to ask the girl out after class, but I didn't see her. I am telling myself now that if I see her tomorrow I'll ask her. No biggy. Also, I got a copy of one of my reference letters today, I must say, very, very kind words! Went to trivia tonight and answered a lot of questions. In the end I walked away with three free drink tickets! Another plus.

Well to bed!

A Storm Day! And another tomorrow!

Well, what a storm day. Its snowing and blowing outside and it makes me wish I had a candle to burn. Oh well. Word is out already that the University will be shut down tomorrow. So no fresh start at the gym and no meeting with my history professor. Maybe just me, some course readings and a good book? Finished The Da Vinci Code last night. Excellent read! Hockey is cancelled again today because of the weather. Ah, a Canadian winter, where the land is full of moose and maple syrup! (actually this is not true at all!). Well, I think I am going to listen to some Orson Wells on Mystery Internet Radio! I do recommend.

Applications are all in!!!!

Well, things are better not that the applications are in. A lot of work and stress. Got my keys to the chapel today, I'll spending more time in there. I did go out last night it was great. So all my pals and my friends band. And no ex, but I really wasn't worried, I said, hell I'm not letting her run my life (hell I broke up w/ her.) The walk home was good. It was snowing and blowing and the sidewalks were covered w/ the white stuff so I had to walk in the middle of the street. It was relaxing, just me and my minidisc player.

Just got back from Wilson's Karaoke. Good buddy of mine, he does a kick ass job of MC'N. Tired and sick now. Can't get rid of this cold, bought some no name vick's vabour rub (cause I'm a student). Good day though, ha, went to the gym played some basketball, and then bought a donair and fudge! Defitest, but so good! Think I'm going to go to a party tomorrow night. Not sure, we'll see. Might start watching more movies. Watched the Godfather part one this evening. Wicked trilogy, but not better than my favourite movies of all time: Back to the Future

Well, there is this girl that I was going to ask out but I don't think I am now. I think I may have found someone else. But I'm a little wary about it. You see she's pretheology, she wants to be a minister. This scares me as my mom is a minister and so is my dad. Plus, Amy's dad was a minister. But this girl is different. I mean she's pretty cool, not like most aspiring ministers, I think she likes to have a good time, party, etc. I'm not saying that all new and upcoming ministers are boring, but I know a lot and they aren't like this girl. Heck, I'm not saying I'm "hardcore" but I'm not saying I'm "straight-edge" either! Anyways I almost asked her out today at the library, she works there. We'll see. Anyways I'll leave you with some excerpts from my law applications-My Personal Statment:

I have the immediate desire to enter the profession of law as I have always believed that the legal system plays an important role in Canadian society. It is the backbone of our social order. Law sets out the boundaries of our country, and it provides safety for our citizens. As a strong believer in social justice, I want to become a lawyer so that I may be of service to others. By studying law, I will obtain the tools, knowledge, and confidence to assist those in need. Far too often, society has had the view that the law system has failed them; I would disagree, and I would like to transform this view, by working in the area of law, and contributing to the legal community. I believe that I am a suitable candidate for law who has great gifts to offer. I am confident that I can meet the requirements of studying law, the academic demands, the long hours, and the framework of the legal institution. Committed to people, to community life, to social order, I am eager to pursue a vocation where I can fulfill my responsibilities to society and my interests in helping others. I am a person of integrity who is passionate about justice. To this end, law and its challenges is of great appeal.

AND:

I have chosen to make a vocation in law, as I see it as a way of serving the Canadian public through helping them with their needs, and struggles and working hard for their rights. I am prepared to do this as I have always helped others when help was needed, and also I have gratefully accepted their help when I was in need.

My background, interests, and personality have led me to seek a vocation in law. My academic abilities, discipline and interest also lead me to believe that I will meet the challenges of studying law, just as I have met my previous personal and academic challenges. My special needs have been personal challenges that I have overcome and that make me more eager and sensitive to the special needs and circumstances of others. My work ethic and my desire to make a contribution both to the community and larger society give me the motivation and will to achieve academic and professional goals. I have much to offer the legal profession, and look forward to serving the Canadian public in this way.

Mickey arrived today

My Mickey Mouse watch arrived today. It isn't the same one that my grandfather got me, but I think it serves a purpose. It's a "Classic Comics" watch. Still I wish I had the original, but what can you do. Did I waste my money?

I'm so frustrated lately. These damn applications are taking forever. Plus, someone important today let me down. I asked this person if they could look over my applications like a week ago. Today he implied that he was too busy. So, I'm left wondering, what the hell am I gonna do?

Plus, I have an essay due tomorrow which I haven't started. Its not an easy paper. I have to read about 200pgs to get the gist of it. It will be the first time ever that I pass something in late. But oh well, what can you do. I hear its storming tomorrow. PLEASE!

Today I've decided that I'm not ready for anything? Girls, law school, maybe even traveling? I tried to talk to a girl today that I really like. It was weird as most times I talk to her, she is always happy etc. Today was the opposite. This seems to be happenning alot lately. Whatever. I've also decided that I am not going to go out tomorrow night. No, I really don't have time and no I really don't want to face the ex, or certain things I'm trying to get away from. Maybe people say she's running my life, no I really don't like "boozing" sometimes. Yes, this is angst! ....................I don't even have time to blog. G'nite.

AGGGHHH!!!!

Frustration is kicking in. Can't sleep. Deadlines, more work then I thought....

Storm Day

It snowed today, classes were cancelled at 1.30pm. Making a lot of people angry. Including me.

So my grandmother is getting a dog....
Kyle

Friendly little fellow
Kyle

This is Nanny's new pup
Kyle

Not sure about these guys?
Kyle

New layout/Going home

I'm going to try a new layout. See how it goes. Well I going home for the weekend. Mom is picking me up at 4.30pm. She has had meetings all day in Sackville, so it will be a convinent pick up. I'm going home tonight to see Sidney Crosby play. He's supposed to be the "next Gretzky" which well see if it happens.

Tomorrow I'm going to hang out with Keir. Going to go watch him coach his Peewee "AAA" team in Charlottetown. Should be fun. Then Sunday evening I'll be back in Sackville.

Until then.......

Mickey Mouse watch

Well today has been the longest day of my life. So much good has happened (for one, my history prof hit on me!) But I am so tired that I couldn't care. I've been waiting for a phone call from a lawyer with TS who is going to give me advice for applying to law schools. We both were diagnosed with the disorder at the age of seven. Never spoke to the man before. I found a connection through the TS website. He's from BC, so the time change is keeping me up! *Eyes are begining to shut* But this call is very important, so I'm gonna wait it out.

Today I had a spure of the moment desire/made a decision to purchase a Mickey Mouse watch! Yes, I'm not fooling you! Ever since I was 8 I have wanted one. You see, when I was 7, my grandfather gave me a "classic" Mickey Mouse watch just before he died with Cancer. On our move from Alberta to PEI, I lost it somewhere. I can remember my mother was so upset. Get this, my mom bought me another one, but I lost it too! So I haven't had one in a while and I have been eyeing them ever since. I Always wanted one. Now that I may have a little extra money flowing in, I thought that it was time that I purchased a third watch. I live in a small university town with no stores, and no Mickey watch. Nor do I have a credit card. So I can't shop online. But, my best friend Keir came to the rescue. He ordered the watch for me. What are best friends for?!?!!

Thanks Keir. Mickey should arrive in a week I suppose.

A sign from God?

Well today was the most craziest day of my life. I think God is talking to me hear? Ok, this is crazy. How does the resignation of the Vice-President of the University affect me? Well, now that Charlie Hunter has moved out of Student Life, Rev. John Perkin is the Dean of Students. So, my life is now turned upside down. For the past two years, me and four others have been volunteer chapel assitants. That means that we read scripture, meet weekly and bascially help John out. Now that John is Dean, there is a void to fill, that's were we come in. He's still the Chaplain, but we are running the show. So what does that mean? I have my own office!!!! Ha, yes, but lots of responsibilities. I have my own office, and a nice one (John is giving us his office in the chapel-it has a couch!). Plus, we are getting a computer. We also get keys to the chapel as we have to check up on the place. Get this! I have to keep office hours! Because he always had office hours from 1-4pm everyday, we have to pick up on this. We all have to work three hours a week in the office, just in case people stop by. We basically need to maintain a spiritual presence, so people don't think that the Chapel is being abandoned. So when I find out when my office hours are I'll let you know! Please come by! I know I will be spending a lot of my time there. Such a great room. Library and everything. Plus a Bible from the 17th century!

This is a HUGE responsibility. I think I'm going to go crazy. I also am giving a sermon/preaching on March 6th, so y'all better come out. I have to write for the "Through Stained Glass," the weekly campus paper column that John did. I think I'm going to do it on the Da Vinci Code. For our efforts we are getting some compensation, which will be nice, but "mum's the word."

Oh my, *sigh* I'm tired. Dave, it's gonna be good to have that beer with you tomorrow. Meet you at the libary, 2.20pm. Then to Ducky's? *Eyes shut* I'm going to bed....
Kyle

We lost at hockey tonight. We are still the best team in the league. This was only our second loss this year. So we still have a chance of taking it all. But these guys are good. They have some former OHL and QJHML players. Also, three of them play Senior hockey here in Sackville. Well, I must admit, I stood on my head tonight. I robbed so many people. My defense was terrible, no actually our offense was worse. But oh well. My back is really hurting badly. I think I pinched a nerve. And it didn't even happen in the game, but in the warm up prior to the game. I love this digitial camera thing. I'm not going to flood this blog with pictures, but it's fun! Above is my goalie mask.

After the game, I went to the pub as Lauren was celebrating her birthday. Lets just say there were a lot of hammered people when I got there. My friends won at trivia tonight which was cool as they get free drink tickets.

I must get to bed, it is 1.30am. I have a busy day tomorrow. Some big changes are occuring on campus tomorrow, which indirectly involve me. This semester is going to get even busier. So tomorrow my list includes: Meeting with prof for letter of reference for law school- 11.00am. Meeting with Career Counsellor to revise my resume- 11.30am. Grade photos at 12.30pm. Then class from 1.00-2.20pm. Then another class from 3.30-4.20pm. Then a meeting with the Chaplain at 4.30-5.30pm. By that time I will be exhausted and will be ready to die. So I think it will be an early night tomorrow night.
Kyle

Ok, So I got a Digital Camera for Christmas. At first I was like, "oh great." I didn't really want one, but my parents thought it would help me out on my trip to England in May. I don't know much about them, so I am testing mine out. I couldn't sleep last night so I fooled around with it. Ha, this is a picture of my room. As you can see I'm a mess, so busy with applications that I can't even find time to clean my room!
Kyle

Me and my cousin Melissa. She arrived to England today.
Kyle

My cousins and grandmother. I'm the second from the right. Yep, that's me.
Kyle

As I was feeling blue today

As I was feeling blue today as I heard some upsetting news about my ex-girlfriend, I had a chat with my good friend Dave. He has always been there for me. Sometimes I wonder if I am avaliable for him when or if he needs me. But I'm sure he'd tell me. Dave MSN'd me this wicked song by Yellowcard. It really put things in perspective. On a positive note, I have my Law School applications almost done for Dal and UNB. I am asking a professor tomorrow to write a letter of reference for me tomorrow. He said he would be glad to earlier last semester. I just relaxed today, skipped two classes, talked to the Chaplian, and got this stuff out of my system. It felt good, I listened to some Tupac, who at times gives me inspiration. Not becuase of his image or anything but because of his lyrics. They are inspiring (Yes I know I'm not from the Ghetto, but I can relate). Anyways, I must get to bed, busy day tomorrow, I present my fourth year History seminar paper on PEI Settelment. Should be intersting.

Here is "Gifts and Curses" by Yellowcard:

"Mary belongs to the words of a song.

I try to be strong for her, try not to be wrong for her.

But she will not wait for me, anymore, anymore.

Why did I say all those things before? I was sure.

(She is the one), but I have a purpose,

(she is the one), and I have to fight this,

(she is the one), a villian I can't knock down.

I see your face with every punch I take,

and every bone I break, it's all for you.

And my worst pains are words I cannot say,

still I will always fight on for you.

Mary's alive in the bright New York sky,

the city lights shine for her, above them I cry for her.

Everything's small on the ground below, down below.

What if I fall, then where would I go, would she know?

(She is the one), all that I wanted,

(she is the one), and I will be haunted,

(she is the one), this gift is my curse for now.

I see your face with every punch I take,

and every bone I break, it's all for you.

And my worst pains are words I cannot say,

Still I will always fight on for you. Fight on for you ..."

The reason I love it.... cause 'this gift is my curse for now' ....thats how I feel right now.

But I'm just so relieved to know I'm not alone."

Patrick, my cat.
Kyle

Finding answers

I found out the answers today to some of the questions that have been troubling me lately.

I cannot see, so can somebody help me?

The scariest thing happened to me today. For about thirty seconds I went completely blind. I mean nothing, not a sight, only darkness. I'm not sure what's up with this, but I'm not going to let it bother me.

PS: Can any bloggers help me?

I just had a thought. I wish I knew how to update photos onto this page. I'd like to start putting pics on this site. Also, I want to put links to my pals sites, but I don't know how?

Thinking about old times

Well, I had a good time last night. Dave threw a wicked party. Good to see everyone after the break. But I was hanging out with some friends who often see my ex-girlfriend. And that made me thinking. I miss the old times.

I often wonder how Amy is. What she is doing. Is she happy or ok with herself? Its hard sometimes. But that's life as they say. But I'm not going to let that get the best of me. I am going to put it aside and really work hard at school and these applications. But sometimes it just pains me. I haven't seen her since the break up really. But I don't know what I would say to her even if I met her, or would I speak with her? Anyways, ENOUGH RAMBLING. As Tupac says "I'm going to start thinking about them Better Dayz."

Applications

Well I'm busy with school. These courses seem to get in the way! I am busy trying to get my Law School applications ready. This weekend will be spent finishing papers, and editing my resume. Hopefully I can get some done. I'm not going to push too hard.

Well, I am going to Dave's tonight as he is having a party. Should be a good time. I bet the pub will be packed though afterwards. I also got invited to a party tomorrow night. I might make and apperance there.

Well I threw an old CD into. The Offspring Amerciana. Remember: "pretty fly for a white guy!" I know I am! I suggest that you throw in an old CD. It bring's back memories. Cheers!