So I never went to bed today. I'm restless so I re-lived some of my childhood favourite movies. Hope you enjoy them. Davy Crockett battled those Indians and had a wicked theme song.

The Natulis kicked ass.

Pirates.

I loved the big oreo cookie.

Roger Rabbit, owned by Marron Cartoons.

Ferris. Classic 80s

Indy.

Who can forget Mary and Bert.

The best movie ever made.

Poor Ernest. I loved those punk kids with their Chuck Taylors and spiked hair

Such a good movie

Does anyone remember this movie?

Master Mason

Fraternaly yours, Brother Kyle.

Four Years at Mount Allison. The best years of my life!!!

Four years at Mount Allison.... some pictures. I'll load the grad slide show soon, and the mp3. SLOAN Concert...

40 Charlotte

DC FOR ME!!!!

Our football team sucks

Me and Wheels.....drunk....

The peeps

Our dean...a fucking drunk? haha, naw he's cool.

LEGO for the Easter Season!

Da Vinci is nothing compared to LEGO!

The Last Supper.

Say it ain't so Judas!

New Logo and New Layout?

This is a pretty cool design.

Well, I'm sick of the generic blog layouts. I want to make something that is unique, something that represents me. Somthing that people will enjoy. This is my proposed logo. I don't know how to incorporate it into my blog, but something will come up. I don't know this html stuff to make a page, but I'm sure something will happen.

I want, I want, I want

I want to get into law school. I want a girl. I want a car. I want a year off. I want to make money. I want to help people. I want to know.

LIVESTRONG

You ever know those fucking people who do things because its cool. The livestrong craze is really pissing me off latley. I'm so glad that the bands are raising soooo much money. This is needed and congrats Lance. But right now I'm noticing a lot of things.... people wear them for fashion, and yes the "yellow" is fashionable and catchy. But to me the represent so much more. I used to stop wearing it because everyone had one.... but now I will not go without it. So people stop being fucking tools and wear one because you understand what it symbolzies. I know I do, more than ever this week.

Cancer sucks, I hate it. My dad had it, grandfather, my cousins' grandmother is dying with it right now. And what fucking pisses me off more than ever is that my ex-girlfriends dad is sick with it again.

You see, a lot is annoying me right now. ... a lot is happening. I knew Amy's dad was sick last year, and I knew this was coming. Amy won't talk to me... I wasn't even going to email her, but i was the "nice" guy so I thought I'd reach out and be a friend. I got no response. So what did I do... I did something uncharacteristic of me.... I got fucking wasted on a Monday night. I don't know how many Strongbow's later, but I was on my buddy Wheels front lawn at 8pm. Thanks Chris and Lauren for the Milkshake at Mel's. I've also been doing other things that I don't normally do to get my mind off things.

I've been trying to see this girl Sarah. She is so cool...but I'm not sure. I'm so tired of trying and I am letting things happen on my own. But she may be trying too hard, or maybe not. I went to the play Godspell tonight with her, and then we went to the pub. It was fun but I was feeling awkward so I left and now I'm here. She could tell that I was upset and she asked me if I was leaving because I was upset. She knows my sitation with amy, but not with Jamie. We talked about it last Friday about it. I want to tell her about it, but I'm trying with her and I don't want to ruin anything. I want to visit Jamie, btu I can't go to his house, Amy's house. I may write him a letter.

St.Patty's Day: The pub was packed... so many third years I don't know...a few familuar faces (Dave I was looking for you!). I met a good friend from High School there which was a surpise.

Also, I'm not going to get into law school. I feel it, and I don't know if I want to go. I feel a pull in another direction. I've emailed Oxford for information about their theological programe. I may investeigate it further when I go to England.

God, I hate typing.

More blogging to come

So much going on right now....not enough time... some intersting stuff... not right now!

Feels good

I got to know this beautiful girl today.

Yesterday

How I long for yesterday.

Being there for your best friend

Well I was on the phone late last night with my best friend Keir. I mean he is my bestest friend, the guy that will be standing next to me when I get married (as my best man). Keir's going through a tough time with his girlfriend and I was there to chat things out with him. I can only imagine how he is feeling. It's the worst feeling in the world. When you are with someone its an unexplained feeling and when you are without them, its still unexplainable.

I can only think about Amy when I talk like this. I went out with her for a year and a bit. I am still not fully over her. Keir has gone out with his girl for about two years. So this is really tough on my buddy. Time will easy things, and good friends will be there. I know Keir was there for me when I was fucked up this summer and fall. So Keir man, I'm here for you when ever you need it. Phone calls, emails, etc. Let me know when you need a help.

"Natural Intelligence"

Well, today was interesting. I skipped both my morning classes to work on my history paper which I now have 8 pages written and it will be finished tomorrow! At 1:00pm I bumped into my religious studies prof in the library--the prof that I just missed the class with. I heard that he passed back our essays too, so I am keen to see how I did! Then I skipped my next religious studies class. After supper at Joey's, who was there but Rev. John C. Perkin my professor. He causally said Hi. However, I don't think he cares.

As well, my self esteemed was boosted a bit today. I have been down on myself lately for not achieving what I perhaps could have at Mt A. I have a very, very hard concentrating on academics. And what I am finding out is that perhaps Ritalin has hindered this level of concentration when it is supposed to help it. Since I stopped it, it seems my imagination is better and I can think more clearly. I have no proof of this, but I am beginning to see signs. But today a discussion took place over marks. I am happy with what I have accomplished here at university, the friends, etc. But my friend cheered me up today when he told me that I had a “natural intelligence.” I don’t’ know if he realized how this impacted me, but it did so significantly.

Today in history 4420, a student gave a presentation on women's diaries in Atlantic Canada. After her paper was presented it was asked: "Does anyone here write diaries?" I responded yes, and some jokes were made back in forth. I soon realized that I may be among a small male population who actually intimately shares his thought. My buddy Wheels though commented that our diaries are perhaps better described as "journals." Interesting observation my friend.

Well, check out the DC! link to the right. My good buddy Dave has some kind words for my performance on Sunday.

Weird thing happened today. A girl that I took to my high school prom has started to MSN me. I seen her over Christmas at the bar, but never thought much of it. I must say, perhaps there is an interest there. Our conversations are admittedly flirtatious, which I don't mind! I guess we have said that we would get together when classes die down. Interesting....

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Thank You All! Sermon Text

Well, I was so happy as all my friends showed up to see me preach. I really think I hit a note with my sermon. I was impresed as my Poli Sci prof showed up, and the Chaplain thinks I should be a minister! Ha. Well, I PARTYED so hard on the weekend I was afraid I'd lose my voice for Sunday night. But I didn't, so hear is what I said!:

Sermon Preached by Kyle Wagner

“Loneliness in Our Global Village”

Mount Allison University Chapel

March 6, 2005

As human beings we struggle. When we seem to be alone and the weight of the world is on our shoulders, we don’t know where to turn. We face hardships and we know that they are difficult; a broken relationship, a failed exam, the uncertainly of what will happened after graduation. It seems that when we are “down for the count” we realize how difficult life can be. Everyday people face struggle, and everyday someone is hurting. We know this because we have statistics. Visit the United Nations website or Amnesty International and you can see that many are in pain. The War in Iraq has caused many hardships. However, there are efforts to address these hardships, including the excellent work that Rights and Democracy has done on our campus. Yet, as we look to other continents we often forget our friends and neighbours. One only has to look at society today and see that many people are lonely. The people who “fall between the cracks” are the people in need, and as Christians we have a moral responsibility to respond to this need.

As we all look around this campus, we can see the busyness of life unfolding. The mid-terms, those five essays that have to be done this month, and a presentation that is not finished—hence we are “all in the same boat.” We all face stress and we all understand our circumstances. Some of us deal better than others when it comes to stress. However, when struggle is faced, some people exclude themselves from life. They become lonely and lost in their own world. We pass by a friend and stop to commiserate about the amount of work that needs to be done, yet do we really know how the person is actually feeling?

What about the people that we don’t see? The friend we knew in residence but seems to have dropped off the face of the earth. We forget about the people who don’t come out of their dorm rooms, because they fear the outside world. Or those who don’t walk the long trip into town because they are feeling depressed about life. We tend to miss these people as they are tucked away from the world, where their shadows are not visible. As Christians we have to help those who are hurting.

The issue of loneliness can be discovered in our popular culture. This year’s Grammy Award winning punk-rock band Green Day has produced a CD entitled: “American Idiot.” The record comments on the present state of society. The words to Boulevard of Broken Dreams speak of a loneliness that is present in our world:

I walk a lonely road, the only one that I have ever known, Don’t know where it goes But it’s home to me and I walk alone. … My shadow’s the only one that walks beside me, My shallow heart’s the only thing that’s beating. Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me, ‘Til then I walk alone.

These words are very significant today. If we as society are walking a lonely road, when does it end? Who can help us find the right directions, and are we capable of pointing the right way? Who is there to calm the troubled waters?

Today’s Gospel speaks of a calmness that restores certainty. In Matthew 8:23-27, Jesus calms the waters and stills the storm. The disciples who have been following Jesus wake the sleeping Messiah. They are frightened by a storm and the possibility of death and they cry out to their master “Lord, save us! We are perishing!” Jesus awakens from his sleep and says: “Why are you afraid, you of little faith?” The story is also told in Mark 4:35-41. “Jesus was in the stern, asleep on the cushion; and they woke him up and said to him, ‘Teacher, do you not care that we are perishing?’ He woke up and rebuked the wind, and said to the sea, ‘Peace! Be Still’ Then the wind ceased, and their was a dead calm.’ He said to them, ‘Why are you afraid? Have you still no faith?” They replied: “Who then is this, that even the wind and the sea obey him?’

This passage speaks of God’s divine love for humanity. His son, Jesus calmed the waters, for his disciples, in the same why that God calms our lives. When we are upset, God resorts tranquility in our lives and minds. For the disciples, Jesus not only calmed the storm, but he calmed their souls. In the Old Testament reading of Ezekiel 34:11-16 God is seen as the Shepard who watches over us:

I myself will search for my sheep, and will seek them out. I will rescue them from all the places to which they have been scattered on a day of clouds and thick darkness. I will bring them out from the peoples and gather them from the countries, and will bring them into their own land. I myself will be the shepherd of my sheep, and I will seek the lost, and I will bring back the strayed, and I will bind up the injured, and I will strengthen the weak.

At times when we are lonely we ask: Does God care? Do I matter? Where I am going? At these times we need to look to God’s love. We need to understand that God is the calmness in our life—“Peace, Be Still.” In this Lenten season we need to take some time to be calm, and to listen to God.

As many Atlantic Canadians know, the sea can be ferocious. A friend of mine sailed on the Bluenose for a summer and he has told me some amazing sea tales, about the proper procedures that occur on the deck of a schooner. Our lives are very much like the sea. Sometimes there is serenity in our life, but at other times, we are unsettled or incapacitated. As Christians we need to look out for one another. We need to be the anchor for the one who is in need. With globalization we are becoming more connected, but we are also becoming more disconnected. So how are we able to be there for others, who are in need of our help?

When we think of the global village we think of security. We have the United Nations, NATO, and even the United States which provides protection for our country. Yet, for many security means obtaining retirement finances, for others an education provides security. However, some people still fell insecure with their lives? Our modern world is filled with technology—Cell phones, laptops, and Blackberry’s. A friend is just at the click of a button. MSN, and text messaging allows you to sit at home, talking to your friend without even seeing them. Our political economy is a factor today as the stock market sways up and down like a pendulum, and our eyes are glued to CNN to catch the latest sound bite. Globalization and multinational corporations are the norm and local small-town businesses are considered a thing of the past. For some it seems that everything is great in North America. We can safely live and participate in our democratic society. After all, Canada is a leading G-8 member, and our economy is booming. However, our global network cannot solve all our social problems. Perhaps, we have fabricated a tight-knit society that is faceless, where we cannot see the person on the other side of the computer screen.

As globalism is occurring, there is a great and positive move towards social justice especially in our church setting. As leaders we want to help those who are affected in our global world. We want to find cures for such diseases as AIDS in Africa which by 2025 will have infected 80 million people. We also want to address the genocide in the Sudan, and devastation in the Tsunami affected regions. The banning of land mines, and the preservation of clean water, are also at the top of our lists. This aid is justified as measures have to be taken to address this instability. However, as a society we tend to overlook our neighbours as we set our sights around the world. We forget those living in our own communities that need help—especially the lonely and the troubled. Ask yourself: when was the last time you visited your neighbour? Are we more concerned with what is going on in the United States, Europe and Asia? Have we forgotten about Sackville, Lunenburg, Bedeque, Yellowknife, Amherst, and Sydney? If we truly want to help those in need, if we truly want to be the stilling force that inspires people to do wonderful things in the world, we need to look at ourselves first. Turn to your neighbours and see they are doing. As Christians we are called by Christ to address the issue of loneliness in our society. If we want to do good in this world, we need to be strong at the grass-roots level. Many chose their own phrases: “Act globally, think locally.” I suggest that perhaps society could work from the bottom up instead of the top down. We should “act locally, and think globally.” If we are not happy with ourselves, how can we bring happiness and security to others? I think the message in today’s Gospel gives us a tool to address the issue of need in society. As the great British author Charles Dickens once said: “No one is useless in this world who lightens the burdens of another.” If we can become a stilling force for those around us, then collectively we will be far more effective. We need to set our sights not to the horizon, but we need to look around us and see what is occurring on deck. Once our crew is ready, and there is no chance of mutiny, then we can set our sails, and be on our way, serving God’s purpose. AMEN.

What a wicked time!!!!!

Oh my god. I had the time of my life last night. So much fun. 2.00pm in the afternoon, skipped my 3.30pm. Went to my friends house. We got so ....

Tonight going again hard. Scienec society parties are tonight. As President of the History society our crew is gonna crash it!

Well, more posting soon!

Come one, come all, hear Rev. Kyle!

Well, I finished my sermon today. Glad that's off my chest. Now I can focus on my essays. God, I've been telling everyone about Sunday. I'm sure I've annoyed lots as I may have told them more than once! Sunday @ 7.00pm. Ha, I'll post the text up after.

I'm excited. Feels good to get up in the pulpit.

Well, I phoned UNB today. No word. I'm gonna call again tomrrow and ask some more questions.

Lost at poker again last night. Had pocket Aces all night Sunday though! Big party Saturday. Hmmmm. can't drink.......what else can I do ;)?

Also, a good buddy of mine has said that he has an apartment that he is subleting in Halifax. I'm seriously thinking about maybe finding a jobt there for the summer. It could work!

Its been a while!

Wow, its been a while since I last blogged.

Well, spring break was good except the snow we got today. I went to Bangor, Maine with my family. It was ok. Really its the most Canadian American state. Enjoyed listening to the political commentary about Bush. Checked out all the american stores: TARGET, JC Penny's, Filenne's, Borders, etc. Ha, for food: McDonald's, Applebee's, Olive Garden, Ninety-Nine, Pizza Hut. Ha, they have Walmart too! Except the difference in the spelling is: WAL*MART instead of in Canada WAL-MART. Interesting.

Picked up some cool stuff. Got the Donnie Darko Director's Cut DVD, one of my favourite movies as a kid The Flight of the Navigator, and Goodfellas. Was going to get the Sienfeld DVD's, but hopefully for my Birthday.

Well, the states was fun, but I really enjoyed hangout out with friends. Played some pool at Dooly's. My buddy Nathan has made the cut for the National's this year. He's gonna be on TSN in April; I think the 19th. Sweet.

Well, my Green Day tickets are arriving in a week or so. I'm so excited. Nevermore so. Its gonna be the biggest concert that I have gone too. The biggest concert I was at was Sloan last year, and boy was that memorable.

Anyways, I think I might invest in a basketball. I should have bought bball sneakers in the states, but I didn't. But I figure if I buy a bball, I can go to the gym in the mornings i.e. 7.00am and shoot hoops. You see, the ball room is locked up because its so early.

Well, busy this week. Planning for essays, and the big one..... writing my sermon. All are invited, this Sunday at 7.00pm.