I just had to repost this becuase this is a fucking amazing picture of me. It was taken at Captain Kidd's pub in London, England on Whapping. What a scoundral I am....argghh

Never make someone a priority when all they make u is an option

well things are great.... thats how i started off last blog. sometimes they seem to get worst but i'm making the best of it. i'm only bitching because sometimes, no, maybe most times my blog helps me vent.

so i'm extremely tired......not sure what it is. i need to go to out patients and get blood tests i'm fucked up somehow. hanni i'm taking my vitamin c. actually today i was so tired i took 3000mg. I was going to go to the doctors tongight after class but i woke up this morning realizing that i had a paper due last thursday of 5-6pgs on a film review. i'm doing dogma. talk about a shitlump in my heart when i realized this. god help me. but the prof is away in germany giving a paper on pluralism so i'm hoping that i can sneak it in her mailbox while she's away without her knowing.

so then i find out that we have an assignment due tomorrow am. 9pm. never knew. so my friend ali helped me with it and and i'm glad because she's a great source of inspiration (like i'm too hard on myself).... she's the real deal that one :)

I had a talk with an old friend today and it went well or as well as its going to. the boat has sailed, the bus is gone, and the plane has taken off.... i'm feeling glad about how shit went down.

so i want to go the doctors because i feel shitty...but someone wants me to take their little brother to the eye doctor, but what about me???? If i say no i guarantee that this clown will cry. fuck. what if jc said get your hands off my clock or get outta here you whore. Hmmm should i call her a whore? Plus i have a reflection due at 1pm tomorrow shit yeah shit yeah!

welll tomorrow night im saying fuck it all, let it ride, kiss may ass work, i'm watching scary movies and celebrating one of the best holidays in the universe..................................... Halloween....hopefully with some hitchock........

Things are great

Well life seems to be going really well. The AST halloween party was fun... a blast and i didn't get too drunk! I loved dressing up in my costume...william wallace. I am not as stressed and i think i can contribute it to spending time with friends and not dwelling on school.

i have been placed in the ghetto. the church i will be working for for the next two years is on gedogan street (i cant spell today and i don't care). its a very urban charge and i'm excited. my homie tupac would be proud.


i'm really liking halifax, i think i'm finding my groove. i'm starting to become mature about classes as a friend told me that u just sometimes have to show up. i think she's right and the transition from undergrad to grad school is a big one ie you can't skip when you don't want to go. This friend is full of fun and she is such a delight! Last night i went to a united church for a spooky pipe organ festival. so very cool, they played hitchcock!

I love halloween, i think more than any other holiday. i wish i was at disneyland for their spooky festival they have every year. so very cool.

i'm starting to eat healthier too, except for wendy's. i love wendy's beef.

so i'm typing right now and i'm trying to think.....i'm smiling because i would not have guessed that i would meet such cool people. i thought that one person was the one for me, but the more i live, the more i doubt. i've stopped thinking about her and the what ifs are going away. i get up feeling refreshed and excited about chance encouters with my new friend. im going to be so very chill with life, unwined, and walk slowly. i'm going to notice the little things about life and be the best friend i can be and who knows what life will bring.

ajgrptn at mta dot ca

a blank page sent to her no subject attached
nothing there only space
it's been done before
when we were young and in love

through the pipe lines it travels
a tiny bit of nothing

air of love, fall from grace
why it is sent not sure
there is no cure for dead love

no response, none sought
yet why such dismay over such a friend
i'll never know until the end.

Funnies

yoda is so cute

haha no bumwipe for you

the missing link

dearth star

Dumb ass

Sunday,Bloody Sunday By George W. Bush

Just had to post this.

luving the internet

A new logo too?

In love with love?

well today and this weekend has been okay i guess. just haning out by myself. but i guess this isn't bad.

last night me mark and craig just sat around. mark went out boozing and i feel asleep to condorman an 1981 Disney tv movie? Does anyone remember it? A comic book writer gets to live out his comics when he's hired by the cia to be an undercover agent? Great flick!

this morning I got up. had a great conversation with my parents. my pops is still very stiff. i miss the big guy. he's got braces now to keep his pants up. hilarious. ms sucks, but sometimes you gotta laugh. i went to campus got my stinky hockey gear out of the office and made up a halloween poster and planned the thing. so hard trying to get a party going. lot of the students don't drink and also have families. so get this we are going to have the party in the chapel. hmmm fun eh? im not sure.

so then i started my theological reflection on Tupac and its coming along nicely. I then ditched my buddy mark as I was busy with work. i went to vd rented the omen and texas chainshaw massacre. also Xmen 3. it totally sucked. how can you kill off professor x and jean gray? Insane, shame on you marvel!

SO then i had a great conversation with my buddy dave who i miss dearly. he's in calgary hanging out. wish he'd come back to me!!!!!! so when i get thinking about babes, it usually involves a conversation with dave suggested that maybe i am in love with love. maybe i want a particular person to be the one and i don't know who that person is. i mean me and sara have known each other for a while. but i'm not sure now. i mean i think i'm done with it. i'm just going to float out in the world and see what is there. i mean i have friends and stuff why not lay of the girls for a bit? can't hurt can it? Just have fun with friends and see what happens. i think i'm gonna give it a whirl.

So wish me luck. sober october, sober love? hmm no doesn't work does it?

well i must say i've been pretty bored this weekend but what else is new? i'm trying to find things to do that doesn't involve drinking. but ya know that i don't have a lot of friends that don't booze everyweekend. but i'll make the best of it......

Sleeping or dreaming

well i think i've slept for 18 hours straight. i'm not sure what is wrong with me. school is fine, i do the b average thing or b+ but i'm bored with it. girls are shit and i'm leaving them and anything that looks like a girl alone.

i got headaches all the time. stress. well i'm not sure but i know tom selleck is on campus filming his stone cold series. i wish tom would ask me out for a drink. i'd tell him my troubles and maybe he'd fly me to hollywood to meet some studio executives and i'd tell them my film idea about a minister that goes biserk and kills all his parishoners. slasher flick!

but i did play with his dog. nice girl really nice dog. well i don't know what to do. i'm bored and not interseted in a damn thing. even movies.... this is weird. i think i'll get in my car and drive far far away. maybe california?

Drifting away?

Well this weekend was pretty good. I didn't drink, so sober october is doing quite well. I'm feeling great about it and i think i'm gonna get use to this. Friday was Mark's bday and me, marty and wheels went to see The Departed. An amazing movie, i recommend it to everyone. Did you know the Scorcese was goning to be a priest before he decided to be a movie director? Also, the church in Godfather III where the baptism took place was his home church. I had a slow day on saturday, and I didn't accomplish much work. Saturday I was in bed by 10.30pm. Sunday I woke up and went to the Cathedral and did some work. I finished a biblography and an assignment/essay. Sarah helped me with it which was nice. Tonight was good. Me, Mark, Wheels, Donald, and Ali played Axis and Allies and it kicked ass! I was germany. No one won. We didn't finish the game. We understand how to play now, so next time will be a lot easier.

Yeah, so I don't know what to think of this sara situation. I mean we had this talk and stuff and I've not thought much about it. But things are changed now. I mean I'm not really worried about what she thinks about me now. But maybe she is getting closer to me? I mean I'm not asking her out anymore but is she looking for me to? Plus, i've met some really cool people to hang out with and thats kinda nice. I'm not waiting forever for this girl, even though I think i may have told myself that i would? Its frustrating to know what to do. I'm not sure and its bugging me.

A little something for philospher Dan

Well, today has not been bad. I got up early and went to the gym. Did 30mins cardio and then 1hr or so weights. I'm so sore right now. I rearranged my room it's still messy. Then I went to the local comic book shop/hobby shop and ordered Axis and Allies. It will be in for the weekend, for some sweet boardgame fun! Who has played? There were so many things I wanted in that store, however, I didn't buy anything else.

The past two days I've been getting stuff that I ordered online in the mail. I got some dvds...Columbo Season Three, Citizen Kane, Casablanca, and Gone with the Wind. Does columbo not kick ass?

Well I've been at AST for a month or so and I've learned a little about God:

God is love. "Agape" given of fullness
God is monothesitc/platonic
How do you conceptualize the relationship between God and Christ
Trinity...affermation that God is one in three... ie father son holy spirit/ghost
God is co-equal, co-eternally
the Father begest the Son in eternity
Son is the homousion - one in the same
Does the spirit proceed from teh Father alone?
Augustine and Luther suggest that the Spirit coem from the father and the son
Trinity itself is a metaphor
Theology affirms the unkown
Its a paradox.
God in three ways or modes
God is omniscient - knowning everything, not affected by anything, all knowing.
Pathos of God- pain is at the heart of love... suffering with humanity God does!

God as Creator:
world distinct, world not divine God brings from the world
Principles of Creator:
1. made out of nothing, no previous matter
2. God creates through own freedom and will
3. God creates out of love to create is sign of God's love.

Sabbath- finishing God delights!
God is reflected in the world, yet seperate from God.

lots more to come.

I'm reading some Karl Barth, Rowan Williams and Tittlich. Tilly boy was a ladies man, I think he slept with EVERYONE!

Well I'm off.

Good times

Well its been a while since i've posted last. Things are much better and I'm settled in. Ive met some really cool people here and a good friend. Tonight we did a road trip to truro and it was fun. Good tunes and stuff. Joel you would be proud, such good taste in music.

Its good to finally get settled on life and know the direction that you are going. I'm liking this theology stuff, but at times its a bit hard to get into. but i'm focusing on the positive aspects of things. What is going good and not what is bad. I'm starting to go to the gym. Tomorrow at 8am not far off. Me and sarah got memberships to the SMU tower so it should be good. i think i'm gonna sweat the fat off in the sauna and steam room. hmmm. This weekend should be good as I am not drinking anymore. doing the sober october thing. i have work to do, but i'm going to make time for chill. I'm going to purchase axis and allies tomorrow and use that as my 12 pack for the next few months. i'll geek it out. its fun being a nerd again. plus this girl, ali i met is such a nerd. I mean she can't get any more geeky. And what a dweb!

Well i best get some sleep so i don't look like a complete ass tomorrow falling off the treadmill and such.